Why Vs Why Not

Why vs Why Not!!!

    Am I the only one to notice that folks are always asking why this or why that. People tend to always want to know why, when in fact if you tell them why, then what? Right absolutely nothing. We live in a world were a lot of times people do things and have no clue as to why. Let me tell you all why I do some of the things I do. I was asked, "what made you want to write a blog?" I said, "my mind is full of so much, and I might as well share,so why not".

      I find myself praying a lot and asking God for direction, and prayer over how the message will be received. That's even if it is received. Now this is coming from someone that didn't pray or want to pray ever. I don't know if I come across as bragging but sometimes I'm so excited about the change that God has and is still doing in me, I can't shut up about it. I'm so shocked by the "dead on the pew" Christian, because being able to feel God everyday moving and touching me, it's overwhelming. I find myself, crying because God has become the best thing I know so why not share him. I'm happy to read my Bible and pray every day, not because I want brownie points because I love God so much, so why not.

      I mean people can brag about college degrees but I can't brag about leveling up with my Jesus, come on now. I tell my oldest, he came be anything in this world and I'd be happy. However, to see him saved, is apart of my peace because that's the greatest accomplishment. I see pictures my friends post and I see them filled with the Holy Ghost having a shout and praise Monday through Friday. I look at my old turn up crew and I see them feeding the homeless and winning souls for Jesus. So why not let them see me happy in Jesus because soon it will be all of us. My life has become not just mine but I'm working for a higher purpose. That purpose is to reach as many people as I can for God's glory. Why not, I'm super cool, why not be, cool people going to be in heaven too. Lol. Just had to throw that in here.lol

      My relationship with him causes me to be joyous and loving, wanting to tell everybody I come across. Sometimes I get overwhelmed by the love he gives me because I know I'm not worthy. But God!!! So why not!!!! People say, your boring now but I'm okay with how people see me because I only truly care how God sees me. See I was a wild card, a men's LADY but not ladylike at all. I was so many negative things, I had a major issue with any type of church person. Let me just be honest, I didn't like but like three christians and I'm serious. I never truly loved and appreciated anyone foreal. I would be with men, I knew I'd never in a million years love or want to love. They were meat to me and I dined and dashed. Having so much taken at a early age, I was a manipulator and just not the nicest person. God broke me all the way down, to do in me what must be done.

      I remember in 2013, I had gotten extremely ill, ended up losing my job while off sick. I was so angry because I couldn't speak and when I spoke nobody understood me. So I had to write notes to my son and my doctors/nurses. Now, I always told God if you want me, come get me yourself. I didn't want to deal with church folks. So since I couldn't speak, I only had God to talk to. See when I tell you when God works, sometimes it can be painful and uncomfortable. I asked that if he remove me from that dark place, I'd never go back there if he stayed with me. I use to hate people and I'd hurt people because I felt people deserved the same pain that I'd dealt with.

      I felt if you wanted mercy, get it from God. I prayed that if he'd fix whatever was wrong with me, I'd  lift him up daily. I'd love people with the love he has shown me. I'd forgive people, if he'd forgive me. I'd live for him and if I fail, I'd get back up. I begin to speak to him daily and I haven't stopped since. I ended up losing my job and people started falling off, he pulled so much from me. Stripped me bare so he could work.

      So when I'm posting scriptures, talking positive, and happy about God. The reason is just know that I'm alive and well so why not. When I think of how far I've come , why not. When he didn't allow me to die in my mess, why not live for him. I can offer so many explanation but why. So I just think why not. I laugh because humans remember your flaws and love throwing them at you, why? I say why not, I'm absolutely fine with a friendly reminder on just how good God is. I sometimes look at old pictures and laugh at the devil because God saw the best in me even when I was in my mess.

     Why do I avoid certain drama filled people not because I think I'm better but because God has been too good to even allow certain dramas and things to get me off track. So why not steer clear. I'm far from perfect but I want the best in me to be used by him for his glory. I never really thought I'd be in anyone's church but why not, the God I serve is too good to pass up on a praise meeting. People wonder why I'm okay with people walking away from me that I love, when it's family it hurts but why not be okay. I'm a passenger, God's driving this car and he knows best. So why hold on to something God has obviously been trying to break apart. Why not let it/them go. In the words of a awesome man of God, Let it go!!!! So if you ever wonder why I'm the way that I am now, don't just be thankful that I am. The light is far better then the darkness. So there you have a little bit of Sonya Bridges.



Thank you all again and be blessed